help me out said the minnow to the trout

my body has become something i want to keep hidden. scars and marks. i can laugh about the marks, but the scars wont fade.

i always wanted to have smooth clean beautiful skin, but i think i like the skin i have better, it tells a much better story.

i am so comfortable around you. i have never been that comfortable before.

today i just wanted to spend time alone sketching for the whole day, but i didn't do that. i must have seemed so vacant. i just needed a day alone without anyone able to see or hear me. but that doesn't happen in cities, even small ones.

lately i have just felt so guilty, i dont even have a reason, but i feel so guilty. im sorry mommy.

i figured out that one of the reasons i got out of control is because we didn't have any animals in the house. so the distance between us grew and there were no friends.

this isn't a very happy post so far.

kittens!

thats much better.

-zoe